vent

everything is a fucking mess my life is a mess and it needs to fucking get itself together sorry for the constant swearing im just angry at my whole situation. so bugs are fucking everywhere i just found like this unidentified bug in my room and only a few minutes later in my clothes pile a beetle larvae btw im scared of bugs i dont know so this whole fucking thing is so annoying and thoes pieces of shit moths are all over the damn place i wish theyd go extinct and my mom she ALWAYS YELLS ALWAYSS about stupid dead by daylight i wish she would stop its so annoying and thoes rounds take so long so i have to wait like 30 minutes to ask her something like for food or smthin omg i cant tell if imn shaking cuz im tired or starving anyways i just wish i could restart my entire life or just get a new one because life is shit rn and OH GOSH if this is how life is when im not experiencing what i think could be seasonal depression then OH ITS GONNA GET WORSE my life WILL get worse and i dont i dont know what ill do then also i think i have derealization and it just makes everything SO MUCH WORSE . i use the internet, the thing that caused most of my mental issues probz, is my escape from it all and sometimes it just does nothing and im getting tired of it auuhuhgfjursnu fcd hn jjjjjjjjj n i would say kill me  but im not suicidal so earehfwrg why why why why why why why why whyw hwhwy whwywh wyywhwywhwywhywywhywhwy