class of 2024

thinking about how i graduated only a couple weeks ago and i feel like im falling apart? like i never peaked in hs i wasnt those annoying ass popular "where my hug at" ppl but like i wasnt an outcast either so idk i feel like since i dont have a routine anymore im like lost?? like im floating in space with no destination and i fucking hate it. i kinda miss waking up in the morning being yelled at by my mom and getting angry and falling asleep in class. now i actually have to worry about adult shit and idk anything about anything. i mean im going into aviation school in the fall ig but i dont rly wanna do that but the pay is high so who cares and my dad is willing to pay for every cent anyways so why not? god i wish i can just live in the ocean and not care for anyone else anymore i hate giving a shit about people i hate being vulnerable ew. i wish i had my own place or apartment then all my problems would be fixed and i could stop being a maid for my shitty siblings