RAAAAHHHHH

Why cant I keep my planotic soulmate of a fucking best friend by my side. Why did it only last 6 years when I saw us both dying in the porch of our houses at age 87. YOU were the only reason why I saw myself with a FUTURE and now I have to talk to other people as if it is alright, as if anyone could ever take that place from you because saying "Im sorry, I cant call you my best friend because someone else has that place" is LAME, EMBARRASSING, AND MAKES ME LOOK LIKE IM GLAZING OUR PAST FRIENDSHIP WHICH I DO BUT YOU ARENT HERE ANYMORE, YOU ARENT TALKING TO ME ON NIGHT BECAUSE SHE CAME INTO YOUR LIFE AND YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME, you forgot my birthday and I still wrote you a happy birthday message right at 12 am. And my birthday is just 2 days before yours Lara, TWO DAYS. HOW CAN YOU FORGET ABOUT IT.