why did I stop being so grammary

idk why I stopped being so good at grammar on my blogs I used to spit out cool lengthy blog posts everyday and I was so happy and proud of myself proud of myself happy and now my mental health ate me like a monster and I'm stuck in its belly and I'm scared and its crazy and I'm tired and don't wanna make lengthy posts and no one reads my stupid blogs and its boring and its lazy and its every rude name under the sun and the moon and Jupiter and maybe one day I'll bring back my cool lengthy posts but I'm stuck in the belly of the beast and I need help its slimy here and my friends disappeared and I hate;;them for that and I wontofrgivetehemever..slslsl99999

because 2008 was great