Experience

I've suspected I was neurodivergent since I was 11. I looked up what the symptoms for ADHD were in my school computer and found it oddly relatable.

Now that I'm older I can't get a diagnosis because of finance so I'm just gonna share my thoughts on may or may not having a mental illness.

I feel like an aware AI that is so aware that I know I shouldn't be aware. I should be coded like everyone else but I'm just not for some reason. I keep asking my fellow AI to see if they can help with this problem but all they can tell me are generated messages that they were coded to say and I know.

I know that they can't tell me anything else and I know that they have no idea what I'm trying to do. It's not their fault but I just really wish they could understand me sometimes. 

That's all though.

I have to sleep now so goodnight

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