Im Sorry dad

My dad saw my burns, he said I'm doing an internet challenge, oh how I wish it was just that. He asked me to put away his food purchases, and he accidentally saw, he started screaming about how ugly he was and how people at school would react, about how I was ruining my body and that he would have one more problem (taking me to the doctor), about how it was toxic and How could it hit a vein and make me have heart atack. He's a good father, but I'm not a good daughter, I wanted to be, but I can't, he tried to talk to me after he calmed down but I just didn't stop sobbing, when I cry I don't I can't speak, and to be the complete package I could only cover my ears with the blanket, cry and sob, I don't blame them for not knowing what I'm going through, I didn't tell them, because I I knew they would stay like that, and I was right, I just had to ignore it for a few more days and I would go back to normal., but then due to an oversight I was back to square one.I wanted to be a better daughter, I love you dad, I'm sorry, I will try to be a good daughter next time.