talking about my life because goreposting is fucking stupid

[inspired by jizzl]

uhhmm hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii so basically i'm cereza and i admit i used to have a really fucking bad edgy phase like gore posters do in fourth grade... i'm 17 now :thumbsup: respectfully if you're a gore meatrider i pray u get better

anyways

i'm an intj, true neutral i guess? idk

UM i'm a SENIOR now. which is weird. basically i'm only going to have 5 periods in the coming school year because i am so #cool and don't need many more credits to graduate. i only have two required classes and three electives yayaaa. i'm all done with my math classes but i'm gonna do calculus on my own time because i don't wanna lose any math skills when i go to college. my required classes are government/economics [they're the same class, gov goes on for one semester and econ the next] and english and my electives are office experience [taking stuff to teachers, doing work for administration and the dean's office], library aiding, and spanish 2 >:) i might also do beginning art bc i've done art for a million years and it'd be an easy class. floral design too!

ummm funny fact about me is that i'm detransitioned! i got ahold of testosterone when i was 14 and thought it would make me feel better because i was having a gender identity crisis. i began detransitioning after everything already started happening so i sound kind of odd and have extremely hairy legs ! my voice is naturally lower sounding tho so that i can't really change, nor do i want to change it. i also just speak in a certain way so i sound more feminine. i've come to realize i'm not exactly one thing, i'm not anything at all but i'm also everything at once... i can't really explain it my gender is a paradox. Paradoxical genders are fucking rad, can't misgender me if you don't know the answer. tldr i'm feminine [striving to be hyperfeminine] but a paradox of a gender identity

i fucking love my s/o !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! literal love of my life and my bffl. loved me when we weren't together, loved me when i identified as a boy, loved me when i tied him up and threw him in my closet /j we r basically twins in terms of interests and personality. some people mistake him for being ftm though..?? odd but funny thing to bring up. we both love metal and kmfdm and we hate our siblings ^_^ he's younger than me by about 6 months but is taller than me.. cereza fail. i love running my fingers through his hair and brushing it though ! he's also a beginning artist and god i love his little catpeople doodles!!!!

i love anything wrapped up in rice paper.!!!!! i make noodle wraps pretty often because it's easier for me to get a whole bowl of noodles down in four wraps than in dozens of bites o_O i also make rice paper tteokbokki out of string cheese because i can't find actual tteokbokki in town and i don't wanna ship it :p

i love my veggies!! not raw tomato tho. recently i had a wendy's chicken ranch wrap and it was so GOOOOODDDD.. tbh i just love food that's why i got a tummy pouch #pouchnationrise

I FUCKING LOVE FEMALE HORROR GAME PROTAGONIST FASHION. ITS SO ME. I ALSO LOVE BIG PLATFORMS AND HEELS. I AAAALSO LOVE GUNS [i'm still pro-gun control]

my next pair of shoes i plan to get [i have pink demonia kera-08s, lamoda screamin' loud platform sneakers that i de-spiked for school, and some docs] are black demonia cubby-311s. i love being tall AND being cute!!!

anyways, later on in my life i'm going to legally change my name to cereza! my current legal name [that i'm obv not gonna state] is just bad juju and i associate it with a past i'd rather leave behind :) i don't like my first name or my surname anymore for those reasons. i'm most likely just going to leave the "me" everyone knew in my town behind once i move, i love my family and stuff but what they are seeing isn't me and once i become an adult they'll be able to see who i am. <3

i have my "ideal" self planned out to the tiniest details and i really really hope i can reach that form of me soon..!!! i'd prefer being a completely new identity than try to keep fixing something i cannot repair. time to upgrade !

i have most of my life planned out, and i intend for it to go the way it's planned for the most part. bumps in the road are fine, you need spikes and bumps in your life or you would literally be dead [bad heartbeat joke, sorry!] but i'm definitely gonna miss some parts of being in this dustbowl of california. i mean.. i'm still gonna be living in this part of cali, just in a different city LOL. hopefully my family still calls every once in a while so i can see my little tito perrito

but that's all!!!!!!!!!!! you just listened to me yap for a really long time! good job /gen

byeeeeeeeee