loner and life

ermm its kind of self explanatory by the title.. i lwk have no1 else to talk to so i guess ill utilise this blog!! i have almost no friends and its so bad, i barely even have people to talk to because no1 likes me anymore n its so hard.. its like "wow im gettinf better yesss!!" and then i get hit w everyonw leaving me and being alone again and i dont rlly know what to dooo.. i try to be fun and have reaslly cool interests be cool in general but ntohing rlly works and atp im a shut in with like 2-3 ppl i actually talk to on a daily basis... plus my mental state is getting worse again and im doing so bad in school n barely sleeping hence why im up at 2:30 writing tsss! its js so hard cus i like being alone but also its hard when everyone around u has so many people to talk to and u dont so u have nothing to do while they have a bunch of ppl to talk to- plus every game has gotten so boring.. im excited for summer but with basically noone to talk to ill probs js be on my own most the time doing nothing!! i just wish friends and talking and life was so much easier cus its so tough rn and all ppl do is ignore me at some point.. plus i get attached so easily so its even worse when another friend leaves and i was attached! i want new friends so bad!! if anyone else is a loser shut in like me id rly appreciate it.. or just want to talk hehe im open to anyone ofcofc. but i js had to do little rant