everything is so fucking dreadful

i have a math test that i have to do today online and i can't access it because i don't have any money to buy access to the textbook and most likely won't until july. car payment has left me with no money. i have to pay both my mom and my dad back for both the car payment and the car insurance payment. i have no fucking energy to do anything since i'm too busy rotting in my room and not giving a shit about anything else.

i was forced to go to this apartment with my parents in order to watch my little brother, and of course, florida being so fucking hot year round, the temperature was like 95 degrees or something like that. i was overheating like crazy and trying my best not to faint. we stayed there for like 3-4 hours, but luckily afterwards we went out to eat and i had a milkshake. i guess that works fine.

i don't know what the hell i'm going to do since i have two failing grades right now, and one i need to bring up to a 70% before the 22nd or 24th i think, otherwise i'm gonna fail it.

why can't shit go better at least a little bit for me