thoughts

i dunno guys, im thinking a lot about how things have been going these past like 2 months. My bf cheated on me, the girl he got with is my ex bsf and they spread a lie and ruined my chances of making any new friends. Im really upset about it but i dont really know what to say. Im getting to a point where i dont know if i can even co-exist with this guy. i love him to pieces and he just does not fucking care. he keeps running after the next best thing, because why could he ever just be content with one thing at a time. It makes me depressed honestly because he will never understand how much i love him. so i guess its just the end. I wanted to just give it space and let it ride out but it hasn't been working and its just making things worse and i think i just decided to give up. i have 2 more days left of school and after that im selling my phone, buying a burner, getting on the amtrak and just starting over. its so much easier said then done but i think its the best thing i can do for myself. i dont want to wait for something that already proved it doesn't love me enough to wanna be there for me.