≡;- ꒰ °end of year thoughts ꒱

Heyyyy, hey stalkers. Your gonna be called stalkers cause…why you looking at my blog!?ծ_o

Nah am playing, I kinda like knowing people care about what I have to say, and or interested in what goes on in my mind. Tell my why I jus now remembered spacehey has blogs!? Like hello? Where were you this whole time? Like I love journaling! Anywyas lemme shut the fuck up for once and like get to on what’s my feelings on the end of the school year :3

So like…lemme just get to the point. Am glad, over the moon, flying with a heard of ponies, narwhals, unicorns and rainbows. 

Everyone has been being fake/ switching up. Like in the sense that I just feel like am no longer friends with anyone. Like no one gives a fuck about anyone no more, the pick and who choose who to give a fuck about and disregard they’re old friends for stronger bond with others. It’s okay to choose and pick your friends, that’s your decision. But you can just start ignoring everybody you’ve made bonds with, in favor for others. Like…hello? Fuck you too bitch. Then again o can’t give to much shade cause like that’s your decision I can’t just force you start giving two ducks for people you don’t give to ducks about. Ducks 🐣

Either way I feel like it’s my fault I don’t feel love, cause I been distancing myself from people cause I don’t feel properly love, and that am just a bother to people around me. Like no actually. Cause tell my why I literally felt so unloved during the 8th grade dance towards the end of the dance I went outside and called my brother to hurry up and pick me up… I stayed out there alone for about 20mins until my friends found me. Bleh. I guess they’re cool. 

The dance was so embarrassing. I literally stood there alone when everyone was with their boyfriends. AND MY EX WITH HIS NEW GIRLFRIEND WHATT…I know I shouldn’t be mad cause I literally turn him down 3 times. But am bad at decision making :((( and am also ARO/ACE. I think the reason why I was a little peanut butter and jelly was cause I was all alone and I just wanted someone to be with. And that’s literally all I felt for him. A friend I could hang out with. Like an another bestie. Not a lover. So, can’t give to much on them…BUT IT DOES MAKE ME FEEL A LITTLE BETTER THATS SHE KINDA UGLY. Not to much cause she me friend and she hasn’t done nothing to me… that why said she a little ugly, cause she my friend :)

Anyways, end of school year. To sum it up, am just ready to make some real ones in highschool. Anywyas bye stalkers, thanks for listening. And stay coot.