LOVE

noun

1.

an intense feeling of deep affection.

"babies fill parents with feelings of love"

Similar: deep affection, fondness, tenderness, warmth, intimacy, attachment, endearment, devotion, adoration, doting, idolization, worship, passion, ardor.

We are first introduced to love by our parents, or we were supposed to. With kisses and hugs, with shouts and vegetables forced down the throat, with the very first "I do it because i love you" ever in our lives, so we were supposed to understand what's caring and what's don't give a damn.

But of course that not every parent can do this right, some teach a harsh love that can destroy your idea of this just one word with a lot of other words in it and various meanings. So it's up to you how you'll fix it or your life is over. I'm not joking. Act now. Wake up. You can't be alone. Are you insane? Don't be. People don't like that. Adjust that posture! Don't be rude. Are you trying to embarrass me?!. We'll talk when we get home....

Why did you clicked on this? Is written "for weirdos and dumbasses", don't call yourself that. After all, i raised you right. So keep loving me, no matter what, i was the one who put you in this world, don't be ungrateful.

I'm sorry, I had to enter on the character for you to understand - you can notice that i'm not in the character anymore because of the simple "i'm sorry"-, understand that this confusing and shameless person is the one who may be the one teaching you to love since your first cry in this universe, and that still you have to live them back. They say to you: "But she's your mom", "but he's your dad". That's when love turns into an obligation.

You should start saying "but i'm their daughter", "but i'm their son". You should ask yourself why. You should know that love has different shapes and colors and find the one you need, not the one you're comfortable with because you're used to. And the most important thing, you should not do everything i'm saying just because i'm repeating the word love.

LOVE

noun

2

a great interest and pleasure in something.

"his love for football"

Similar: liking, weakness, partiality, bent, leaning, proclivity, inclination, disposition, enjoyment, appreciation, soft spot, taste, delight, passion, appetite, enthusiasm, predilection, unselfishness.

You are more alone with your thoughts now. You may like it or not, but you just know that you can't be this way, time to explore interests!

I always loved to read, sing, dance, perform. I always knew what i loved to do, those things were simple to me and it's easy to find other kids who liked the same things. I loved them for loving what i love.

But i'm aware that not everyone where like this, it's hard to find out what you are and if the kids on the playground will like it. If they'll be nice, be mean, if they'll even notice you there. Let's pretend they already do.

You call them your best friend, you have no problem in saying that you love them. Let's make plans! We'll live together and adopt cats! So sweet, you just want to be with them, you would cry to go to their house, the sleepovers are a little uncomfy when it's sleep time but before that everything is always amazing. You wake up and it's another friend. That one is gone, the love is negative right now, but you always will remember the feeling, and that's good. No matter how this hurts, that's good. You'll have more and more to love that way and this all will one day end with the right ones for you (they won't make you cry).

Love yourself more than them. Be careful not to make yourself cry. You are much more important. They know they are more important than you. No matter how victimized and pathetic they act. How they tell how everything happened is so unfair, ridiculous liar! They're ugly anyways, your waist is smaller, is pure jealousy! And you know you were right. You don't even care, right? At least you're not their friends anymore. Better alone than in bad company.

Uh oh... hate is still there.

But that doesn't change the fact that you still have others, everything  is okay, love is still easy, you just don't see it. Buy glasses.

LOVE

noun: love, plural-noun: loves

verb: love; 3rd person present: loves; past tense: loved; past participle: loved; gerund or present participle: loving

1.

feel deep affection for (someone).

"she was the love of his life"

Similar: be in love with, be infatuated with, adore, be devoted to, cherish, idolize, prize, worship, treasure, be mad/crazy/nuts/wild about, 

Opposite: hate, detest, loathe

It seems like you gained new areas now, well that's something. You see, love is constantly changing for you, and you need to be attentive. 

I only truly love romantically two guys my whole life -wich is acceptable because i'm only sixteen-, don't tell the others. Only dated one of them, the other i still long for and feel like i always will (that's not true, I just feel that way). But my love for them were different.

Number 1, the ghost of my machine. Never were mine, just threatened to be, still I felt like I was his. My love for him is crazy, confusing, ego destroyer, desperate. Pathetically cute on the verge of unbearable. Or it's just the little girl inside of me still crying about the teddy bear she lost to her friend. When she got it back it was missing an eye but she tried to hold tightly, it ended up on the trash anyways.

Number 2, the cherry on top of my cake. There was no doubt, no "ifs", we clearly belonged to each other, I was his princess and he was only mine. My love for him was light, smooth, perfectly perfect. But that's all i can remember, that time is blurred in my mind, I have no idea of who i was. I just know that I loved him, until I feel like that's all I did. I was just his princess, where was Soup?. I missed her alone, no one to blame but me, so I went to get her alone to. My cake was not that fun without the cherry, but it was still delicious.

Now you know how it is for me, it's probably different for you. As I said earlier, love comes in different shapes, colors and even sizes. So you have to know yourself to be prepared for what it's coming for you. Study yourself, read How To Know Myself 101 (non-existent), at least try to be you.

I had a friend that her love for her partner was dark, lonely, terrifying, distressing. She was drowning even more deep, not because of love, because of him, after all, love doesn't weigh. Now she loves someone else, she is on the surface, saved by love.

Don't blame love, i detest those "love is difficult", "love is a waste of time", "love is embarrassing" type of blah blahs. Maybe you were difficult, a waste of time and embarrassing to someone and it didn't work out. But hey, you will be every good similar to someone else. You can continue to be this bitter lemon, you'll still find your other half of the orange, because love never disappears, it's always here, there, on the tip of your nose. You can't avoid it, don't fight it, accept it. 

That's how you love, you always knew how to, you just need the right people.

How is love for you? 

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