24-06-08 (summer is coming)

salut,

that was french not nationalism. anyways

i deleted all of my instagram posts because Meta AI can suck my dick. i still post art on tumblr (internet-rolly-polly) though.

there were several times in the past.... week? month? idk.. where i thought "i should blog about this" and i don't remember any of it.

the biggest points of interest in my life right now is that summer is coming and i am reminded that i have 2 years before being thrown into adulthood. i am fearful. first of all, i don't know if i know math well enough to get a decent grade and i think i'll pass but i am still scared, and second of all, WHAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO WHEN I'M OLDER?

i took one of those carrer match quizes and the school has (it is a 3 part quiz, very thorough) and it gives you a lot of a bunch of jobs (as in hundreds) and says wether they are an exellent, good, fair, or poor match for your skills and interests. i did the quiz and it gave me some jobs but i felt like i didn't agree with that i would enjoy them so i took it again and it was more accurate but all of the jobs were either fair or poor matches.

it told me to be an artist, composer, clown, inventor, winemaker stuff like that. what.

i am so screwed. i wish i had a passion for accounting or dentistry or something stable and good and not fucking clarinette.... sighhhh. really as long as i end up with enough money to have food, a roof, and some free time i'll be happy. god, i hate capitalism.

besides all that,

oh my god i can not wait for more helluva boss episodes. i am a wreck, i am in shambles!!!!! aaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!! stolitz is,...

something

wow, they are not ok. i hope they are happy eventually (they are drawings).

alright i can't think of anything else to write.

wait no

i have 1 more thing

my afi has cancer. very tragic for my mother, i don't really know him well but i am still sad. he's probably gonna be fine though.

seeee youuuuuu