I fucked myself up today

went out to a cafe with mentally exhausted body

came back with a stomachache and nausea

(fyi: I drank iced coffee, Vietnamese Iced coffee in particular and my hands are shaking, my head are hurt, im nauseous and gagging every 30 seconds and the worst thing is I'm going to the martial art class and I'm so sick from the gagging-)

can't live through a day without sabotaging myself