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I got a haircut.
Like any other girl, getting a haircut is a whirlwind of anxiety and excitement and regret. My new-do is short. Very short. Grown-out Chelsea cut short.
Growing up I had a massive fear of getting my hair cut and only felt comfortable going to my father's friend's barber shop. This friend specializes in alternative women's cuts and a wide array of men's cuts, but I always got simple straight-across bangs. This time though, I told her to go crazy and do whatever she wanted, and she surely did.
I've struggled to feel feminine for a while. My body always felt too short and skinny to be womanly, my features too sharp and hollow to be girly, the way I present myself too messy and unpolished to be feminine. I've always wanted to connect to feminity but felt I could never do it right.
However, rejecting it and getting a butch haircut also feels wrong. Instead of liberated, I feel even farther away from my goals. Am I always just going to be the ugly girl? Too small and meek for masculinity and too mousy and weird for feminity? I'm devastated I'm finally done with puberty and stuck at the height I am.
Maybe I'm just being vain and my Teegan and Sara haircut is what I needed. I have no clue. Anyways, I'm getting it dyed in two weeks. Yay!!
Weird Haircuts and Fragile Femininity
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Zoseph
I wish you luck! Maybe look at different eras of feminine dress. For example both the standard ladies dress and the more exaggerated flapper styled girls of the 20 worked within very flat silhouettes, and they also strike that modern satifation of not using too many shaping garment to achieve that with most of the silhouette's realization coming from the cut of the garment.
Alternatively if there are any garments you already own that you like how you feel when others see you in them, maybe look up all the terms for what those are called and see if you can get those cuts for other garments (like if there is a pant you like, note the hip height, leg cut, closure and construction ect. to see if you cn get shorts that fir the same ect.)
I love your reply so much! I actually just went on a cute little shopping spree and based a lot of what I got off of what I see people with similar silhouettes wear. It may not be what I typically go for, but who knows? It might feel great to have clothes flatter me!
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mina
its french claire!
I LOVE Fleabag!
by Seven; ; Report
me too! :D
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