What is making me cry

There are kids in warzones, in unfortunate places, who has the same dreams, hope and courage as me.

I want to cling to my mother, hug her as tight as i did whenever its my childhood summer.

I miss my boyfriend's smell, he's been gone for too long.

My grandma is getting weak, i give her mangoes everytime i have the money to.

Im tired of studying already, i keep doubting myself whether i would pass college entrance exams, i am so scared.

My father is retiring soon, he's getting older.

I'm getting older, I'm scared, always scared.