I want to be nothing and nowhere

live reaction to being 21

everything is complicated. and you always hear people say that growing up, thinking "Yea I agree with that" but the fact still hits harder when you actually experience it firsthand. With health, relationships, finances.. everything

and everyone expects something from you too... people always want you to be something you aren't. it's very very rare that I talk to someone who isn't trying to get something out of me, whether they're conscious of it or not.

I don't even care anymore. I can't care. all I can do is keep pushing through, dealing with the cards I was dealt, and making the best possible decisions with what little knowledge I have

and goddammit I WILL cry about it. I have the right to. Doesn't mean I'm not still trying. 

on the brighter side, i've learned that you can find community in the weirdest places. places you didn't even expect to end up.

anyway here's some of my favorite drawings I've done recently. art is the only thing keeping me sane :)