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I lost two of my close friends and my dog this year, first time I've ever experienced death so close and it hit three times unrelentlessly.
I'd like to imagine I handled it well, but honestly I feel like I've lost my sense of humanity from it. The thought of being a human fills me with an overwhelming dysphoria I can't quite understand. I think maybe it'll go away eventually, but who really knows. Haven't left my house in over 2 months now. Bleh. But I have a government job fair to go to in a few days. Wish me luck, I guess.
Life sucks and then you die as they say!
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Starvix
I'm very sorry to hear that life has put you though such an intense hardship so relentlessly. It seems your attitude towards it is a healthy one, though I very much understand the worry surrounding your humanity. It's not as an important thing to hold on to as many believe, so try not to let it hold you down. Additionally, it's hard to find change, especially when you feel a way such as you do now, but do know that there are always options for change. Even if it's small, anything to signify that things are moving and changing can be helpful.
I hope you are staying safe, my friend. Do keep pushing, and I hope the job fair goes well.
thank you so much for this, it's honestly exactly what i needed to hear <3
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I'm glad my words could be of help <3
It's important to reach out, even if to the void of a website's mass of blog posts, as maybe someone will catch your hand and leave you with just a little bit of help, so do reach out again if you feel you need advice. Either to me, or to the everyone of the site.
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