Last night I didn't feel like myself at all

First of all,I think almost everything in my life so far has been going to well lately,well mood wise.

I feel like I'm self consciously self sabotaging myself and I think last night I was self consciously sabotaging my relationships with people in my life.

It started after I had one of my many energy drinks and also not having much sleep or any sleep the previous night,I started texting my boyfriend and looking back at my messages I was typing so wrong like even with auto correct some of the words made literally no sense. 

It just doesn't make sense to me why he would wanna date me or why he even loves me.

And after that I guess I started texting my friends and they called me and I don't know.

After that,I was on call with my boyfriend until 12 in the morning,(probably not the best idea after not sleeping the night before and being on like 2-3 energy drinks along with my ADHD medication that is a stimulate.)

I think I just needed to vent or something.