do people still believe in love?

i used to be such a big lover girl but now that im an adult i gen cant imagine someone loving me purely romantically. its not like i dont believe in love for other people or in other kinds of love, i just cant imagine anyone choosing to love me for life unless its my friend C. shes the only person i could see loving and being loved back for the rest of my life.                                                                                                                                                                                                          its not like i dont think im not deserving of love, if anything my standards are higher now than ever. but i just cant see myself being loved the way i see everyone else being loved, its not like i dont crave someone to call my own but i think at the end of the day im the problem. i dont know how to feel loved and no matter how perfect someone is my heart will always yearn for more.          living with a blackhole in your chest instead of a heart is what i feel.

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im sorry if this post sounded whiny or anything i just like to ramble and writing always helps me sort my brain out a little *>*