im having an existential crisis

tw: vent + religious trauma? + meantion of d€@th + im so so so so so so and very and overly and extremely sorry if i accidentally disrespected anyon's religion

okay, im having this problem for a few months and im gettinc sick of it. okay, idk what religion i believe in at this point. i mean, i think there is a God, because if there wasn't most of things i assume i know would become things i dont know and i dont want this. i also dont think world and life could be by itself. anyways, there is no proof of God or religions. here my overthinking starts; we can only make assumptions about d€ath w religion. if i dont assume a religion as truth, i cant have any ideas about after death. like, what will happen? if islam is true i will suffer for enternity for my sexuality, my religion, my life choices etc. i dont think other "heavenly religions" r true too. i also dont believe a statue or stuff like that too. actually, i believe that there is a god, he/she/ what ever, god is watching and caring for his creation. i also think that if there is heaven and hell god would put human there depending on their wills. i mean, if a random person geniunely wanted to help someone but ended up making it harder for the person they were supposed to help it's still good because their will was helping them. i know i probably yapped sm but if someone helps me i would appreciate it sm