TW vent mentions of sh and more

I attempted to take my life two times in my life,I started to sh when I was a sophomore in high school and started again when I was a senior in high school.

I felt like I just had to many emotions and I tended to let everything get to much,like I would just not tell anyone if I was hurting and I would hold it in until I tried again.

I remember people asking me why did I do it.

well the answer being because at first with the sh I just needed a way to release my hurt,and at first I was just gonna do it that one time but I couldn't stop.

Not until someone reported me to my school and I got sent to a behavioral health hospital.

I was there for a week and after that their would be periods where I would just keep going back again for ether sh or my attempts.

My family didn't help that much all the time,I just never know when Its a good time to talk to them about anything sometimes they could be the nicest people ever but then snap at me the second they get upset.

I saw someone vent on here and I havn't been in the best place but I think this helped me not feel as alone. so thank you!