Mixtape 5 - The End of the World

soooooo here it is, mixtape 5 'The End of the World'

I'm gonna burn this onto a cd tmmrw, I've been setting my new phone up all day so I haven't had the chance to do it yet lollllll

i'd recommend reading the lyrics on spotify as well for some of the songs, as the lyrics help to tell the story, if you interpret them in your own way if that makes sense lol.

THIS DOES NOTTTTTTTTT HAVE A HAPPY ENDING BTW JESUS

(TW: DE/\TH AND SV1C1DE)

but anyways, ill link the mixtape on my profile, and explain the story here....

(the girl is 17 btw and she lives with her ill 15 year old brother, they live alone since their parents passed)

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The story of a girl at 'The End of the world'

Five Years- David bowie

this song kicks off the story and is pretty self explanatory if you listen to the lyrics. Whilst sitting with her brother, it is announced that the world will end and, since its just her living with him, she doesn't really have the ability to do much to prepare for it...

"I thought of ma, and I wanted to get back there"

Black Hole Sun- Soundgarden

It happens. The sun expands, bringing the temperature of the earth up to an unbearable heat. "call my name through the cream and i'll hear you scream again", I imagine is her hearing her brother shouting for her as they both end up unconscious, huddled together on the raggedy couch in their home. Everything, for them, goes black.

Where Are We Now- David Bowie

They wake up to an eerie silence. They decide to walk around for a bit, finding nothing but deserts and wastelands. "as long as there's me, as long as there's you" they decide that, even though the situation is dire, as long as they're together, they can take it on.

Follow My Way- Chris Cornell

The girl decides to take charge, leading her brother through this, as he is ill and younger than her. "little one don't be a fool, im a wreck when I look mighty" she reassures her brother that she is just as scared as he is, and that's ok. 

However, this song takes a dark turn as her brother gets weaker and weaker, thanks to the stress of the situation, and the lack of care since the world ended. 

as the song turns into static, her brother dies...

Stars will Fall- Duster

She sits and looks at her brother's body,she is numb and can't quite grasp the situation. It had always just been the two of them. 

He was her world. 

And now it has ended along with the literal one.

Brother- Gerard Way

As the tears fall, she thinks back to when they were younger, happier and, although she is heartbroken, she thinks, maybe I should carry on. 

for him.

I miss you- Blink-182

She cant believe hes really gone, but she knows she has to accept it, and carry on surviving. 

"Don't waste your time on me, your already the voice inside my head" she imagines her brother saying to her, and she repeats it like a mantra, knowing he would've wanted her to carry on. 

as the song fades, she walks away from where she laid her brother to rest, knowing she has to keep going, and find someone, anyone, out there...

Life Before the Lobotomy- Green Day

As she walks, she reminisces on the times before the world ended, until eventually, she hears "songs of yesterday" and she decides to follow it.

as the song picks up, she finds a camp of survivors and bands together with them, and joins in trying to rebuild some sort of society, "were lost like refugees"

the song ends the same way as it started, only this time, she has a more hopeful view of things, she accepts that, although those times were good, they are gone. and she must carry on.

until.

Space Song- Beach house

She falls in love.

 Almost instantly with this new person.

 They cling together through the uncertainty and act as rocks for each other, holding each other up.

"what makes this fragile world go round, were you ever lost? was she ever found?"

For Lovers- Lamp

They share a tender moment together. just the two of them. the tragedy of everything seems to fade as they stick together. for once, she feels happy...

but of course, nothing can ever seem to go her way.

Between the Bars- Elliot Smith

Just when life was on the up for her again, her lover falls ill. 

"drink up baby", she cares for them, although she can't help but get flashbacks of how her brother went. It's tough, but she does everything she can to "keep them still".

The gentle nature of the song reflects her delicate, loving approach to caring for her lover.

Desert song- MCR

Her Lover's condition worsens. 

She tries everything she can to help them, but she is tired and angry. 

She takes it out on the other camp mates "did you come to stare or wash away the blood?"

she feels hopeless.

she thinks of her brother again "I can see you awake, anytime, in my head"

she cant let it happen again.

but unfortunately,

the earth can.

Lover, you should've come over- Jeff Buckley

"looking out the door I see the rain, fall upon the funeral mourners"

her lover has passed.

she cant bring herself to join the other camp mates in laying them to rest.

"maybe im just too young, to keep good love from going wrong"

she blames herself for letting not only her brother, but now her lover passing.

the lyrics to this song speak for themselves.

Wake me up when September ends- green day

Time passes. She grows tired. More people come, more people go. 

life starts to gain some sort of normality again, although people are greedy and fights break out.

its all so tiring for her.

"as my memory rests, but never forgets what I lost", she stops blaming herself for the deaths, but that doesn't make it any easier.

No Surprises- Radiohead

Life gets busier and busier as the world starts to rebuild itself. shes older now, in her twenties at least. shes so "tired, unhappy"

she lazily listens to the hustle and bustle around her, "bring down the government, they don't speak for us"

she just wants a quiet life. silence.

she remembers life when it was just her and her brother, before all this.

"such a pretty house, such a pretty garden"

she just cant do it anymore.

"this is my final fit, my final bellyache" she thinks to herself.

Life on Mars- David Bowie

If you listen to the lyrics, its almost as if its been written about her, watching over people as they fight again, and again, and again.

she wonders "is there life on mars?" 

perhaps there is.

somewhere out there, maybe there is life. good life. happy life. quiet life.

Last Night on earth- Green Day

She sits down, pen in hand, and writes hopelessly. 

She writes a letter to her lover, as if they were still alive.

"I walked for miles til I found you"

As the world falls down- David Bowie

she is ready for her world to end. She thinks how she would've done anything for her brother to keep him well. she would've done the same for her lover.

she is ready for this to end.

she is too tired.

Motion Picture Soundtrack- Radiohead

"red wine, sleeping pills" she takes them in her hand and swallows one too many of them down.

she waits.

she reminisces.

"help me get back to your arms"

she thinks how this whole 'end of the world' thing is "not like the movies"

she's ready.

"I will see you in the next life"

It ends.

Finally, the world truly ends.

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JESUS OK IK THATS DEPPRESING OK, JESUS.

however, I think that depressing FICTION can be the healthiest kind to create sometimes, as it allows you to concentrate your sadness and pain into something more rewarding, like this for example, a dumb little mixtape with a story.

IM OK BTW, LIKE GENUINELY, DW, I JUST LIKE DEPRESSING SHIT OK

hope this isn't lame af.

also, her lovers gender is left ambiguous, along with names, etc, as I want ppl to be able to interpret this in their own way.

might flesh out this story some more as I think its pretty cool.

AND PLEEEEEEEEASE IF U READ THIS/ LISTEN TO THIS WHATEVER, PLS PLS COMMENT, THIS TOOK ME WAY TOO LONG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

so anyways. hope this is cool :)

or ig this emoticon is more appropriate :(

-TOM :)