family problems + where i've been (vent)

These days, my family is incredibly aggravating to me. My dad, who hardly gives a damn about me, is followed by my foolish sister, who never stops bugging me and forcing her way into my personal life so she may exploit it against me. is starting to irritate me; I truly detest being here, but there is nowhere else to go. Home is an escape from school, but school is an escape from home; both are unpleasant places, although school is better at break time.

I'm becoming so tired of my foolish sister that I'm about to lose my mind. I've been seeing and hearing things, and I'm already on the verge of going crazy. I've done some research, and stress is most likely the only culprit. Exams are coming up, and with my parents' high expectations, this additional inconvenience isn't helping. 

Anyway, the reason I haven't been posting as much is because the ambulance came to my house the other time. My dad started a tiny fire in my backyard; I'm not sure how he did it, so please don't ask. The firefighters had to speak with him for about an hour, and occasionally I wished they had taken him out for suspicious fires or something. 

Oh, but then I would be left with my mother, who is a monster. She is a terrible person who, although having moments of kindness, is really an abusive, cunning, and untreated bipolar monster. I spent all of my childhood investigating potential mental health conditions that my mother might have. I've classified it as bipolar personality disorder, anxiety, and depression for the time being.

I wish that I had a typical upbringing, family, and existence. Right now, I actually despise all of my in-person "friends." Isn't everyone so... plastic? It irritates me when I can see straight through their masks; if you're going to wear a mask, wear it properly; if not, be yourself. Maybe because I can be too honest at times, that's why people don't like me. 

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