TW: implied murder and themes of mental illness
as i walk from the hoards of nothing i see a lamb
coddled in innocence
unaware of the cruelty of the world surrounding
you are so unlike me, little lamb
walking alone
the only one left
my thoughts carry the weight of an entire civilization etched away by time and war
they say it's the bombs that doomed us
but i still think it's the greed
even in my hazmat suit
roaming the healing wounds of the earth
it is still the greed that my species caries that rots away at my sympathy
i alone was greedless
i alone was saved from the fallout
i alone LIVE where all else does not
stupid lamb does not know the cruel world like i
small eyes funneling to dull brains
they can only see the world in a muddy haze of color light and want
they will be born, they will get the urge to mate and they will die
simple minds never truly grasping any knowledge
i alone stand with my far superior brain
thanking
feeling
perceiving
ONLY I AM LEFT
ONLY I HAVE THE MIND TO SEE THE EARTH AS IT IS
it is not greed that drives my perfect body
but instead an unrelenting thirst for knowledge
for the history and truth of every man woman and child to be engrained upon the greatest human to have ever lived
for i survived the fallout
and it was not dumb luck
and yet i feel the hands of time massaging my mind
smoothing it like a pebble in the sea
I AM NOT A PEBBLE
I AM THE OCEAN
and yet i can feel the knowledge of the world slipping away
that so is why i must write!
i am still the best, do not be confused, this is not an admission of imperfection for that would be a lie
i am simply writing down all my knowledge so that lesser life forms than i can one day learn of my perfection
i am NOT forgetting
facts are not dripping out of my ears, drowning me in my suit
that is not true
how dare you
still, i must write
stupid lamb
it cannot even read
it does not know the evils of the world
i hate that ignorant creature
i carry each book in my bag once it is full of my knowledge
it is very heavy and i am very proud
i hobble over the earth, eyes glued to the paper
feverishly tainting it with my mind before i forget
NOT THAT A GOD LIKE ME CAN FORGET
i hobble along my train, the weight of my bag finally crushing my suit
i gasp as i feel the new air fill up my body
OH NO
the same air that maimed the last owner of this suit after i pulled him out of it kicking and screaming
stupid man
i was far more deserving of life
i remember him begging
begging for him to have the suit so he could stay with his family
i could not allow anyone else into my new world
a knife works surprisingly well when piercing hazmat suits
i dumped their bodies all into the same grave
he wanted to stay with them and i am no monster
still, the air fills my lungs as i feel the time that corrodes my perfect mind turn to acid
my hands still write
i hate that damn lamb
i take deep janky breaths of this new air as it rattles my perfect body
i wither
i crawl
my hooves gently grazing the earth below
my knowledge pouring out of my downy pointed ears, my flat little nose and my cleft fuzzy mouth
i try to scream
one last show that I AM HERE AND
I
AM
GOD
yet all that comes out is a brittle bleat
i look upon the world with new eyes
i see no cruelty
only soft shapes and colors as i am led by my own instincts
the bag falls off my back as i crawl out of my suit
papers scatter the length and breadth of the world
all covered totally with words i cannot read
markings i cannot understand
my soft body keels down with exhaustion next to my ewe mother
little body soaking in her comforts
i am no better than any other animal
i close my wooly eyes and rest
many years later travelers of the stars will find this paper planet
they will find the little lamb that is my body
they will find my papers
"insanity" they will call it
cabin fever
a rotting mind
they will call it mercy that the last human was able to escape his fate
they will call the velvet body i retreated into a blessing
every detail of my kind flushed away and still they call it mercy
i cannot know if i agree
i cannot know anything
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