A little old // meltdown

Meltdown It's about self-confidence, and how lacking character can also end up taking away our identity. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels it, talking to people makes my eyes and cheeks burn, sometimes I feel like I'm going to melt from the burning on my face, and in those moments where I can't speak, I feel like I lost, and I also lost a little bit of my credibility, so a little bit of my identity is gone too. Sometimes I feel like eventually I will just be a puddle and people will walk over me or surround me but no one will see me as a person, so maybe this drawing is about finding the courage to do something even if I'm feeling like I'm melting, or trying to do something, and everything turns out well, but when I look at myself I see that, like, like my mind thinks that everything is going wrong.

The only thing I can conclude is that, try to try, to despair, to disappear but to try at the end of the day, and to keep trying even if you are melting, and even though the scene It doesn't look very positive, the important thing is to keep trying.

I wanna share with you this draw I made like four months ago, I draw since I learn how to breathe but I still don't being much great doing it, and on day I just give up trying to get my own personal artstyle, so I start imitating other styles, I remember that I'd do so much pokemon and MLP doodles, but I never learned how to draw in digital, and I give up again, for more than 6 years so, When I opened a drawing app again six months ago, I forgot everything I already knew, and I was left standing in front of my computer, without a original artstyle and an empty canvas, so I deleted it again and took a photo of a previous drawing, I saw many errors and learned to correct them, I still see many errors but they are nothing as serious as the previous ones, and I think I'm getting better in this! And with the time, I'm sure that I will be able to achieve my desired results.