:3 rant

i feel so alone constantly, my life is so boring and filled with people that don't actually care. once im graduated none of these people will talk to me again and im so scared of being alone. i have maybe 2 irl friends and one is probs just gonna use me for drinking LMAO I love my online friends so much but god is it lonely to have very little girl friends :( I don't do anything but sit at home and i hate it so much. even when i make an effort to become friends with people i get ghosted :/ idk whats wrong with me i wish i knew. i wish i knew what i could change about myself that would make people like me more.