彡►♪ Miserable ★彡 (ENG) Part. 1

This month has been quite melancholic, but I really recognize that I have made an improvement in the social sphere, there were quite a few days, uneven, some days I felt like I was losing my conscience, and other days I wanted to be the most social human in the world.

The story begins on a normal school day, my only friend who I can only see for half an hour during recess talked to me about my state of mind, since he is the only one in my environment (IRL) who knows i take therapy sessions.

I told him that i was doing well, honestly my therapist is like a person that I only looked for to give me a diagnosis, but really the one who has to do everything to help me is me, and it has always been me, so we ended up talking about why the current situation People are not usually so sociable anymore. (In my case)

Human beings are sociable beings, but... What does it mean to be sociable these days? When I hear people talk about someone approaching them to talk, they see it as a "strange" act and that it is always to seek a certain "interest." Every time I try to talk to people in real life, I find it quite difficult because it is now so ingrained that generating new interactions is a means of making people uncomfortable.

I said to myself, do you want to continue like this? being in the same pit that for so many years has kept me in so much rot, in all my years as a high school student I have only been able to make 2-3 friends since I always thought that no one wanted to be my friend and that making a natural conversation always have to be forced and get something from an person. I got tired and decided that it was time to put an end to all my insecurities and I told my friend about a plan that I had had for quite some time. I wanted to get closer to a girl who I had known for a long time and I really found it very creative what she said. does (she's an artist)

I began by preparing a letter where I related everything that she transmitted to me and that I wanted to be her friend (Summarized) and I also made a couple of drawings in case you want to see them, they are in my "Tumblr"

Summarizing the process, the day arrived and I had to put up with the shame I was giving and I decided to approach the first person who had written a letter. We had a small talk because I had an exam to take, but she was very kind and smiled at me when I told her that I had made some drawings inspired by her, the plan had been a complete success, I had finally overcome my fears and I had been able to express my feelings to a person who was really worth knowing.

To end this blog/bulletin, the goal is to find people who have overcome their fears and how they were able to overcome them, I would love for you to read their anecdotes ^^

-unicorb