i wanna make cool friends

i wanna make cool new friends because one of my favorite people, who I met on spacehey, committed suicide. No one will replace them. I just kinda want someone to care for in that same way I loved them. We had a close relationship and were like siblings or something of that sort. I liked caring for them because they were a freshman in high school and I was a senior. So it was nice being able to take care of someone. but now thats gone. and i kinda want that back. so i guess i am just trying to find someone like them who will love me and not be afraid of me. and i don't mean like romantic love but platonic or almost familial love yk? or maybe im just crazy and dont know what im saying.