i dunno

things feel slow and quiet right now
it's 9:38 pm
i'm thinking about the people i love
i hope they know that i'd do anything for them
i still feel terrible for just leaving some friends of mine. it was shitty and it makes me feel like they'd be better off without me
but that's not my decision to make, really. if they do want me around, i have no reason to reject that. i'm just glad we can be friends again

all my friends are really awesome
very mentally ill, but still awesome
they're fun to be around and talk with and i'm very happy to have met them
i know it's unlikely any of them will see this, and i think that's the only reason i'll be able to post this lol

i love them so much