i hate ppl sometimes :(

i mostly just hate this one guy. i cant get over him even though he literally cheated on me and used me. like he was probably the only boyfriend i had who gave me the most attention and "love" which most of my exes were dry and rude. he was different but then he turned out to be a total douchebag  and asshole. i blocked every guy for him, but he couldnt block one girl he used to literally cheat on his exes with. :/ and someone i thought was my friend got with him the day i told her i still loved him. i fucking hate people sometimes. why are people so mean and dont care about others? like its just a sad world atp from how rude and selfish people are yk? i just wished everyone was nice and cared about others ig, which i know is never going to happen but ig i just have to dream.