Bestfriend

My best friend means the absolute world to me. We've only been friends since July of 2022 but it feels like I've known him FOREVER. He has been with me through the roughest point of my life and I was there through his as well. We were separated back in July of 2023 because of my ex boyfriend. Yeah my ex will probably come up a lot in these because he has made so many major impacts on my life lol. I ended getting blamed for things that I wasn't even involved in, it was mostly my ex smh. The main thing was drugs, my ex made a certain drug and tried giving it to my friend, but my friends mom looked through his phone and found out every single message that was shared between the three of us. It was horrible. I wasn't able to talk to my best friend for a few months actually, we only started talking again in December of 2023. We talk on the down low and we aren't allowed to see each other at all unfortunately. When I told my best friend that me and my ex broke up, he was there to help me in an instant. He makes sure I'm okay and that I'm safe, I love him so much for that and appreciate the amount of things he has done to keep me even semi sane. I hate being away from him, it's like without him I lose a part of myself. I'm obsessed with him, but in a platonic way (for the most part). I just really want to be with him at all times, I get so upset when I'm not around him. I don't know what my deal is but I never want to stop being around him. He's always on my mind, and i'm constantly talking to him and checking his socials. I just love him so much and I never, and I mean NEVER want to lose him, not again.