dum thingz

Hiiiiiii

I'm in my 5th period class which is basically a free period. Tbh I love this class cause all I do is listen to music and draw. There's only 4 other students in this class and it's a "guided study" so we all basically just do our own things and make it a project and get an A. Idk the class doesn't make sense without good instruction or really, structure, but this new teacher was a quick replacement for after the 1st semester and she's nice so I don't need to complain.

That guyyyy texted me Monday on Insta, he was like "I got your note, I thought it was lit" and that's it really. That was at like 8:30, and it was alr cause he had just gotten it in the morning cause that's when he works, so there was definitely a lot of stress over nothing lol. Then me and my friend spent literally 30 minutes trying to decide what I should say LMAO. I decided to be like "thanks, I was freaking out tryna make it in the car 😭" and he hasn't replied since then. He followed me back but he hasn't yk replied or viewed my story or anything really, and he's been online everyday soo. I mean, I don't think he's interested so I'm just gonna leave it. I always feel like I have a tendency to really be pushy and shouldn't give into that.

I don't necessarily care about the fact that he might not be interested, but like I said in my last blog, spending a summer alone. If anything, it's just gonna be a lot of me alone at my house just smoking and letting the days go by.

Yeah, I wanna have that hot girl summer lol yk but I don't have too many friends, and a lot of them are usually busy or can't hang out. I'm usually alone for the most part, and at this point going out alone is really just depressing. Sure you can have fun by yourself and be happy but what do you do when you stop in the thrift store, wondering what kind of person would like this shirt? Or when you find something funny and turn to share it but nobody's there? Singing your favorite song and turning to the passenger seat to find it empty..

Idk. What's really the point of experiencing and learning without being able to share it with anyone? 

LMAOO sorry I'm in class (I already daid 😭) absolutely fadeeeddd

Idk tho imma go byee