Poems

Poem 1

Title: Mind, unlived.

I've sat in the dark hiding from everything that seemed to real,

Never able to realize that if I am not apart of it, soon it will become a part of me.

That no matter how loud I screamed for it to leave me be; it would just come back as something much less distant then a memory-

It will haunt me; though I will never see it, it will be like a weight that forces me to the ground; 

Giving me no other choice them to dig myself down, And once I am to deep, is there really a way back up?

Will I ever again experience a breath of fresh air,

That isn't polluted by the soil's of my sins; 

That isn't encased by the rotting flesh that I am trapped within.

Poem 2

Title: The tears put the fire out, but I wanted it to burn.

I've always been able to cry; to let my tears flow down my cheeks,

Let them bleach my skin and leave a trail of salt, from my eyes to where ever they land.

Though I've never been able to scream.

Never been able to let the fire from inside by body burn,

Burn until there was nothing left but ash;

Because the tears have always engulfed me, though I've always had so much to say

So much to scream about, but knowing that all I would show was weakness;

That all I would let out was tears, I let all of my feelings delve deep within me

Hopeing one day that they would disappear.

Poem 3

Title: play time, hurts.

Would you be upset younger me

Sitting in a pretty pink skirt,

Now crying in blood covered shirts.

Maybe you would ask me to play, try to me feel better;

Or would you tell me to go away,

I wasn't always a nice kid when I was younger.

What would you do if you saw me now?

Would you cry as well.

Poem 4

Title: The vermin's ashes

I deserve to die even if it would make others cry,

My brain is a sin;

I need to pull off my skin, cut it loose and pull it hard.

Drown me in the fires of forgiveness, heal me while you burn me,

As I am a sin myself.

Yell at me, scream, I must be reminded that I am disgusting;

Vermin, a dog with flees.

Don't let me breath,

Gather my ashes and but me in the sea;

Alone, dark, no air, that is where I deserve to be.

Don't let me near love, nor the sky, don't let me near caring eyes,

Because all I am worth is a painful demise.

Poems 5

Title:  Childhood contradictions  

Tell me to be a kid,

Because it only lasts so long;

Give me a chance to act like a child,

And then tell me to move on.

Look down on me, you curse me with words-

Please choose a path, 

I can't see through your tainted words.