A Splattering of Brain Juice *Personal Journal*

05/20/2024__________________________________________________________________

Howdy,

This is what feels like my first official day on here. I'm liking it a lot so far. Having a custom blog again is definitely something I've been missing for a long time. I'm gonna have a blast customizing it till my interest eventually falls somewhere else.

Stressed out towards the end of the day due to being told I'm gonna have a work evaluation in less than a month just today. I always stress during this things, but I don't really have anything out of place with my work. That's maybe the issue though, I feel like I may be making a mistake without knowing it and I'll be reprimanded. It's never happened before at work and I dread it.

At least dinner came out good. Had baked chicken thighs cubed in a spicy Szechuan sauce with brussel sprouts over white rice with corn and peas. Simple and gave me a bit to finalize a more personal layout for my blog. CSS is def gonna have to become a hobby, I've seen a ton of blogs on here that look fuckin amazing. I got a long way to go.

It also feels good to have a journal type thing to write into again while on a semi-anonymous platform. I know that clearing my head with writing will definitely help me out on the regular. I've been needing a good outlet for shit. Adult life can be a chore, but you gotta just keep on truckin. Enough for now, I gotta fold laundry. Thanks for reading if ya did.

05/21/2024__________________________________________________________________

Another day done, feeling a bit better than I did yesterday. Did some work and figured that the few things I need to get ready for the eval won't be as overwhelming as I thought it would be. 

Besides work stuff, I've been lookin to getting back into greaser fashion. It's been a while since I've had my pomp and a clean shaved face. I enjoyed the beard while I had it, but it doesn't feel like me anymore. Just gotta grow my hair out first before I go outta my way to shave, don't think my short hair would make me as happy without something else to compliment it.

Not only that, but getting to see an old best friend that I haven't seen in actual years tomorrow is making me excited. She's been outta town for so long studying at uni. I know she's always been the studious sort and knowing she's stuck with it makes me really happy for her. Hoping I can get invited to her graduation when it happens. My wife and I can use a trip outta town. Not only that, but I freakin love Olive Garden.

Anyone else ever find themselves switching between fashion styles often? I enjoy trying different stuff out, but I wish that I could stick with somethin. I did the greaser style for a long time after highschool, and I know it works for me cause my hair can stand fuckin tall. I'll have to see how long that one lasts. But for now, I'll ride through regular fashion till my hair is up to snuff again.

Don't got much else to write about, so that's pretty much it. Thanks to whoever for bothering to read my rambles. And goodnight.

06/15/2024__________________________________________________________________

Good morning y'all,

Nearly forgot about this website for a while. Stuffs been so hectic and dull all at once. It's crazy how quickly you can lose yourself in work that you are good at but also growing bored of. I'm a patient navigator for a local nonprofit and I really enjoy not only when I get to work with clients, but when I get to do outreach events to look for said clients. But The parts where it's majority paperwork and mundane office stuff gets so dull that I think I fall into some sorta disassociate waking coma. 

At least yesterday I got to go on a fun date with my wife. I dunno how y'all feel about Olive Garden, but I can sit there and enjoy myself for a good while on lunch specials and wine. Ours is right outside our local mall and we got to visit the arcade together while still tipsy. I missed getting to play at the arcade. It's not as good as I liked it, but I'm getting used to understanding that it's probably just nostalgia that making me feel that. 

It's weird trying to wrap my head around that, why is it that adulthood is marked with the idea that you can't enjoy things nearly as much? I know you've been through it all, and that any experience is bound to be compared to previous ones. But how do you more effectively separate the new from the old? I want to feel some enjoyment again when it comes to new or even repeated experiences. It's hard to sometimes.

Anyway, I'mma update my profile music and get back to messing with my blog. It's probably a good idea to get back into this hobby. Gives me something to do when the numbness seeps back in.

06/18/2024__________________________________________________________________

Howdy y'all,

Got the day off tomorrow so I'm happy for that. Get more time to do the nostalgia dive I've been on with my DS lite. I think I definitely feel like any device that can flip open and closed is just peak design. I got a Cat S22 some time ago and have been running it as my main phone for a while now. It's been one of my favorite phones ever just because I get to experience the joy of snapping it just should I be done with a phone call. 

Why can't major companies go back to designing things with variants in their design. I know the typical smartphone brick is probably the easiest. But in a culture being constantly dominated by aesthetics, something like being able to personalize how you interact with your technology. I think I also just prefer buttons. I've never been a huge fan of touch screens without some kind of stylus. 

I beat SM64DS on Sunday, and now I'm grinding through Kingdom Hearts 358/2 days again. Fuck I love that game, but doing it on proud mode with my adult hands on such a small console has been tough. Thinking of upgrading to a DSi XL when I have the spare cash after my wife and I go to the con we're saving up for.

Speaking of which, I'mma go back to playing some Kingdom Hearts. Later y'all!