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05/20/2024__________________________________________________________________
Howdy,
This is what feels like my first official day on here. I'm liking it a lot so far. Having a custom blog again is definitely something I've been missing for a long time. I'm gonna have a blast customizing it till my interest eventually falls somewhere else.
Stressed out towards the end of the day due to being told I'm gonna have a work evaluation in less than a month just today. I always stress during this things, but I don't really have anything out of place with my work. That's maybe the issue though, I feel like I may be making a mistake without knowing it and I'll be reprimanded. It's never happened before at work and I dread it.
At least dinner came out good. Had baked chicken thighs cubed in a spicy Szechuan sauce with brussel sprouts over white rice with corn and peas. Simple and gave me a bit to finalize a more personal layout for my blog. CSS is def gonna have to become a hobby, I've seen a ton of blogs on here that look fuckin amazing. I got a long way to go.
It also feels good to have a journal type thing to write into again while on a semi-anonymous platform. I know that clearing my head with writing will definitely help me out on the regular. I've been needing a good outlet for shit. Adult life can be a chore, but you gotta just keep on truckin. Enough for now, I gotta fold laundry. Thanks for reading if ya did.
05/21/2024__________________________________________________________________
Another day done,
Feeling a bit better than I did yesterday. Did some work and figured that the few things I need to get ready for the eval won't be as overwhelming as I thought it would be.
Besides work stuff, I've been lookin to getting back into greaser fashion. It's been a while since I've had my pomp and a clean shaved face. I enjoyed the beard while I had it, but it doesn't feel like me anymore. Just gotta grow my hair out first before I go outta my way to shave, don't think my short hair would make me as happy without something else to compliment it.
Not only that, but getting to see an old best friend that I haven't seen in actual years tomorrow is making me excited. She's been outta town for so long studying at uni. I know she's always been the studious sort and knowing she's stuck with it makes me really happy for her. Hoping I can get invited to her graduation when it happens. My wife and I can use a trip outta town. Not only that, but I freakin love Olive Garden.
Anyone else ever find themselves switching between fashion styles often? I enjoy trying different stuff out, but I wish that I could stick with somethin. I did the greaser style for a long time after highschool, and I know it works for me cause my hair can stand fuckin tall. I'll have to see how long that one lasts. But for now, I'll ride through regular fashion till my hair is up to snuff again.
Don't got much else to write about, so that's pretty much it. Thanks to whoever for bothering to read my rambles. And goodnight.
06/15/2024__________________________________________________________________
Good morning y'all,
Nearly forgot about this website for a while. Stuffs been so hectic and dull all at once. It's crazy how quickly you can lose yourself in work that you are good at but also growing bored of. I'm a patient navigator for a local nonprofit and I really enjoy not only when I get to work with clients, but when I get to do outreach events to look for said clients. But The parts where it's majority paperwork and mundane office stuff gets so dull that I think I fall into some sorta disassociate waking coma.
At least yesterday I got to go on a fun date with my wife. I dunno how y'all feel about Olive Garden, but I can sit there and enjoy myself for a good while on lunch specials and wine. Ours is right outside our local mall and we got to visit the arcade together while still tipsy. I missed getting to play at the arcade. It's not as good as I liked it, but I'm getting used to understanding that it's probably just nostalgia that making me feel that.
It's weird trying to wrap my head around that, why is it that adulthood is marked with the idea that you can't enjoy things nearly as much? I know you've been through it all, and that any experience is bound to be compared to previous ones. But how do you more effectively separate the new from the old? I want to feel some enjoyment again when it comes to new or even repeated experiences. It's hard to sometimes.
Anyway, I'mma update my profile music and get back to messing with my blog. It's probably a good idea to get back into this hobby. Gives me something to do when the numbness seeps back in.
06/18/2024__________________________________________________________________
Howdy y'all,
Got the day off tomorrow so I'm happy for that. Get more time to do the nostalgia dive I've been on with my DS lite. I think I definitely feel like any device that can flip open and closed is just peak design. I got a Cat S22 some time ago and have been running it as my main phone for a while now. It's been one of my favorite phones ever just because I get to experience the joy of snapping it just should I be done with a phone call.
Why can't major companies go back to designing things with variants in their design. I know the typical smartphone brick is probably the easiest. But in a culture being constantly dominated by aesthetics, something like being able to personalize how you interact with your technology. I think I also just prefer buttons. I've never been a huge fan of touch screens without some kind of stylus.
I beat SM64DS on Sunday, and now I'm grinding through Kingdom Hearts 358/2 days again. Fuck I love that game, but doing it on proud mode with my adult hands on such a small console has been tough. Thinking of upgrading to a DSi XL when I have the spare cash after my wife and I go to the con we're saving up for.
Speaking of which, I'mma go back to playing some Kingdom Hearts. Later y'all!
08/11/2024__________________________________________________________________
Howdy y'all,
It's been a bit. So that Kingdom Hearts binge lasted longer than I thought. All the games came out on Steam for around $80 and I took the opportunity to get em. Just got done with playing every game to story completion on the hardest difficulty. Still got to do Limit Cut and the Secret episode for KH3 when I feel up to playing through it again. Took me a bit more than a month to do it all and it was so worth it for me.
I'm also finding myself switching fashion interests again now that fall is on the horizon. Got myself a windbreaker off Ebay that'll probs be my main piece for the season. I've been eyeing Tripp pants too, just sucks that my size is a bit hard to come by. Working on that weight loss journey too, but that'll take too long for me. I want some clothing now. I did find some Tripp pants that would fit around my waist, just gotta save up for em. Maybe I'll even drop some fit pics later on.
I also recently started being able to use THC again. I was prone to panic attacks when using it around December. But now I'm able to use again without the panic. I'm gonna use the break I took to appreciate life sober. Cause man, being an everyday user for as long as I was really puts into perspective how boring it is to always be high. Use responsibly everybody, shit isn't worth it.
Speaking of substance use, I find myself craving nicotine like crazy again. I don't want to since I know that using once will cause me to fall back into it. But sometimes I contemplate using it without falling into vaping necessarily. At least with cigarettes, I can only do it outside and periodically as opposed to huffing at the thing at my desk and everywhere in between.
Eh, stuff to consider. Later y'all!
08/13/2024__________________________________________________________________
Bleh,
Today has been rough. With work being stressful and our AC unit finally giving out (damn southern heat is ruining everything), it's just been a lot. At least our apartment complex gave us a window unit to make up for the heat while they wait for a part to come in. Seriously though, having our apartment be at 86 is a fuckin nightmare. How on earth can you sleep like that? I personally sweat like a pig, so I wake up drenched.
On the bright side, I got to do a little stroll around the mall today. Didn't really have time to look at much, but I'm glad I'm working on getting walking back into my regular routine. I get sick of having to sit all the time. One of the woes of having an office job I guess. The benefit of a salary is sometimes outweighed by how much sitting I do. Ah well, just gonna take discipline to get myself into a good routine.
Not only that, but I'm also thinking the argon oil I've been using in my hair has been helping a ton with the moisture I've been lacking. So, now to just continue eating clean and clearing up my acne that's been popping up.
More shit, different day. Oh well, later y'all!
08/23/2024__________________________________________________________________
Bluh,
Now I'm dealing with and recovering from a sinus infection. It's been so damn rough. Least I'm on the mend now, and I've vastly expanded my library of games by finally playing around with the ton of emulation software there is out there. I've been reliving my favorite games on the gamecube the whole time that I've been sick and man did I miss some of these. My favorite revisit so far has been Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 4. Now that my hand eye coordination is better, I can actually pull off some high combo tricks. Don't get me wrong, I eat shit plenty, but I was way worse as a kid.
Another thing that I realized is that windbreakers are some of my favorite pieces of clothing. I got the one mentioned in my last entry and I'm loving the light blue color of it. I'm only disappointed that the sleeve cinch is loose so it lowers down my arm whenever I raise my hands for whatever reason, but that's a minor gripe. Can't have it all when you thrift off of Ebay, I'm just glad it fits good and isn't stained.
That's pretty much it from me, I'm feeling good enough to go back to work at the office so I'll be back at the grind today.
Gotta look to the bright side eh? Later y'all!
11/18/2024___________________________________________________________
I gotta get some sleep,
Been a hot minute ey? How's everybody doing?
Still been kickin in. My wife and I had a fun time today lazing about as we celebrated our 1st anniversary being married. I love them so much, they're a great support when I'm down and a fun person to spend time with. I'm happy to be with them, and that they chose to spend their life with me.
Also got to adding a bunch of links to the images and stuff around my blog. I'mma try to get more serious about HTML for the funsies, but we'll see how long my attention span will last over this stuff. I'm having fun with it again.
Not much to say, it's late and I'm tired. Later y'all!
11/22/2024__________________________________________________________________
Hello,
I had a rough night last night. Leg cramps have been keeping me from sleeping well. Not only that, but I had a conversation with my wife about... an ex-best friend? I don't even know anymore. I help the guy through a breakup with a mutual friend, someone that he was with for over 8 years. And now he's just completely ignoring me?
He cried on my shoulder that Saturday morning, wondering if he made the right decision or of he fucked it up. And I didn't know to be honest, he made his decision and I respected it. We went out to eat together with mutual friends and tried our best to cheer him up. And we did, at least as much as we could during the situation.
Now, I message him and all he does is respond with random memes. That's fine, but it feels like he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I know he's more busy with work friends, and that their schedules align up more and all that junk. But why come to me then?
My wife answered that question last night, they let me know that our mutual friend said that it's likely he came to me then cause he knows I'm decent when it comes to emotional stuff. He didn't need me for anything else after that, and it definitely feels like it.
I'm starting today hurt.
Later y'all.
11/23/2024__________________________________________________________________
Wassup?,
I feel better now early into the next day. I'll find my peace about that soon enough should I need too. Was probably just overthinking it? But I still wanna be cautious about things. I feel myself get hurt, and I gotta just trust my gut.
Anyway, I had some tacos, and a good yap session with some local tattoo artist friends of mine, tried some import cola, and had a damn good dirty pumpkin chai. Shit was good today regardless, and the little treats helped.
I'mma watch a movie with my wife now, so I'll get back to ya later.
G'night!
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