10th thought (vent ? lol)

haven’t rlly been active! sorry! schools been taking a toll on me :| doing sociology, psychology and art was definitely a choice!

i don’t rlly know what to do anymore if i’m being honest… it’s exam season so i’ve been studying as much as i can, but i’ve also been rlly tired. these exams go to our predicted grades (for university), so i have to get good in them.

i can’t stop thinking though. i haven’t been falling back into bad habits and i can’t stop anymore

i feel like i’m losing myself and every time i cry i don’t even know why. there’s so much going on inside of me that i’m trying to figure out and that i have been trying to figure out for so long, but i’m so tired. i don’t even know what to do with myself anymore.

i feel nothing in anything. i feel bored and tired all the time and all i do is just think and think. i’d like to talk about it to my friends but i don’t want to them to see me as stupid or something + we don’t rlly talk ab stuff like that. friendships are very shallow. 

im just struggling rlly bad and im not sure what to do