5/18/2024

Today was uneventful. 

First off at 7 or so this morning my mother woke me up and let me sleep in my parents room so they could be in the living room, i didnt get to bed till 8 oclock and was on my phone. 

When i woke up it was 2:09 in the afternoon, i had slept a whole school day; wasting my saturday by sleeping, i cant say i missed much, it's better to sleep away my days than want to never have another day again. 

Its very lonely on days like these, thats why i hate weekends. I used to love saturdays, they used to be "my day". i used to be busy every saturday. Now i dont think i ever will be, The only good thing about today i guess would be that my mother baked bannana muffins and i had a long shower. Then after supper i went out with my father and got a slushie, I like slushies, i like the sweet taste that fills my mouth and the brain freeze i can get if i drink them to fast. it really is the simple things in life that make me enjoy it slightly. 

lately all ive wanted is comfort, i dont know why. I feel like a clingy child but i just want to be hugged, feel the warmth and closeness of another person. 

I should work on my science project, but i cant bring myself to have enough motavation. 

I wonder if things will ever change.

-kam