a lil help (relationship)

So, on the 26th of April, i went to my stepmoms house with my lil bro, to spend a few hours then go home, and i was a bit thristy and i asked for a bottle of water, they didnt have any so, someone in the house went to go buy two bottles and this boy came up handed the person who going to buy the water ( lets call him M, the person buying the water) 20 bucks, i didnt much of it, since he was smiling at me, i just thought, some stupid lil boy. Then, my stepmom (lets call her Fe) came outside to talk to me about some, then she introduced me to him, (Lets call him Siah) and we started talking a bit, exchanges socials and whatever, he was really funny, had a type of muscular arms (which i like) and a nice smile, he wasnt everything i wanted in a boy, but he was just fine. Like after an hour of talking, my bsf called me (if you read my first blog i wrote, i call her D) and he didnt wanna be seen by her, so he just talked to her without showing his face, tbh, D obviously didnt like him, and started "roasting" him? Idk. I was suppose to go out with her tomorrow with Fe, and Siah

The next day comes, and i get ready to go out with her and Fe also Siah, but my lil brother and her nephew was coming, and when i tell you, it was so crowded with the five of us in that backseat until i sat infront then Siah, it was still crowded, we couldnt even talk much since there was two fetuses in the car with us, it didnt matter they were just in there own world. Fast foward, i started crying because of how much stupid and funny stuff he was saying, i never thought i was going to like him but i did. He knew how to speak to me, like to lower his voice, unlike when he talks to D. 

After i went home, i came back the week after, and the another. I was supposed to go this week and the week before that, but i couldnt sadly. 

Saturday 4th May (like 2 weeks ago)

Fe said that the three of us should go to the Savannah, (its like a BIG field, people just go there to have a picnic or just to buy food) and we have to go there by 7pm (common thing here) but, it was only me, my dad, Fe and D. Siah was in another car, but i wondered why, i thought it was only the three of us? THE WHOLE FAMILY PULLED UP, Fe`s sister, her brother, his gf, the mother, the nephew, M aswell. Me and D looked at eachother, i know what we thought "what the fuk" anyways Siah was there, i was nervous, the three of us was left there, with parental supervision ofc, the three of us started talking. The thing is D always starts fights with Siah, which makes me kinda jealous since im just there, quiet as a mouse, it didnt really bother me ofc, i mean thats my bsf, but it kinda did, and they would text almost everyday, more than me and Siah did. Fast foward when everyone comes back with food, it was so crowded there and the three of us had to walk away multiple times or just me and D, to talk. Another fast forward, i asked him if he has a crush on me, he said yes. 

A day later

I was on my bed, (forgot to mention that he put his insta account on my phone, so i can look through his messages between him and D) i was just scrolling through their texts, D asked him if he gonna ask me to be his gf, ( i was looking forward to going to Fe`s house before i read that) he said yeah, so i got exicted to go that week, i didnt go. 

Like a few days later, before the weekend came

D asked if he gonna ask me to be his gf, he said no, he went back to his ex after confessing to me, are you kidding me? That was basically the reason i didnt go and other reasons.

So...

I have this online friend his name is Bomb, i talked to him about it, he took my side. He was also mad. 

Just for me to find out...

He blocked his ex, and went to this girl named Zara, who seemded older, since she is a s_x therapist, (lemme tell you he`s 14) and Zara already has a bf, so why are they dating? Later after, Zara broke up with him, but they still talk to this day. Crazy. He told D, if anything happens between them, he can ask me (The ex name is Redz) but after they broke up, he went to Zara, and if they cut off communication, he`s probably gonna date other girls just to stay away from me. 

Overall:

Idk if i should still like him after all that, he doesnt talk to me, whenever D brings me up to him, he doesnt seem to care. Fe told me that he`s just nervous, i believe her, but to a point. Idk what else to do, i have tried everything that worked with my ex. (manifestation) nothing seems to be working. Maybe, because the other i dated, i like them SO MUCH, it worked. But now, its kinda just mixed feelings with him, idk. 

If you have any tips on how to help me, i would really appreciate it, Thank You!! <3

I might delete this or private this, if they find out.