Everyday is the same

It doesn't feel like I'm living, it's like I'm just buying time.

I'm tired of pretending, I'm tired of talking to people, I'm tired of forcing a fake laugh, my existence is dull and meaningless, I'm getting nothing out of life. 

I don't feel anything toward the people around me, this utter indifference to their existence perhaps it's selfish of me to not care, but I can't make myself care.

Maybe I'm just waiting for someone to care about but I know they won't come, I don't feel sad about it, I don't feel much of anything, just a general tiredness.

Well, this is a great first post, I feel like I need to do something to give my life meaning, perchance one day...

Sorry guys I swear I'm not this miserable normally, I may have poor social skills but I am not like this all the time. Anyways I hope you all have a swell night, thank you for reading.