life is a very expansive thing. for each and every one of us it is vastly different, usually for reasons both beyond our control and within it.
i believe we live to experience, and there is no right or wrong way to do that technically.
in my life a lot of my lived experiences so far have been mostly painful.
the people who were supposed to support me growing up couldn't or wouldn't.
and it really fucked up my head.
but is that always going to be a bad thing?
i am really not quite sure. it feels like it a lot.
i hope i can grow from all of this.
sometimes it feels like i have no room for good experiences,
sometimes i feel too broken for anything new.
and i don't know if things will stay that way or not.
it's kind of funny.
twelve year old me would be elated to know I get to do nothing all day.
twenty-one year old me wishes more than anything they were healthy enough to get out the house and meet people, have friends, and make a difference somewhere out in the world.
life kind of really sucks right now.
but i think my only hope is allowing it to suck currently,
and just doing what i'm able to now so that later it'll probably be okay.
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michi
If it's any comfort, you're not the only one feeling this way 3
it does sometimes feel that way so it definitely helps knowing i'm not the only one going through it right now lol. thank you, i really appreciate the kind words.
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