day 1

It was raining today, the cold was chilling to the bone, and I really wanted to throw myself into someone's arms, but no one is around. I didn't get enough sleep and I really want to sleep, my head has been hurting for 4 days. I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts lately

I want to write down my thoughts here every day, I will try to be honest first of all with myself, since none of my friends knows about this account  

If I suddenly disappear, you know, I committed suicide, I do not know how long I will last in this world