harness

i haven't written one of these in a while

nothing specific really inspired me to do this im just bored - oh and also my english teacher read my pervious stuff and that was eurghg

i told her about taph :3333
taph is my dad btw i love her

taph is the only person i like to open up to, she's just.. chill 

"i told my english teachre abt u"

"what did you say.."

"i told her abt how i can talk to u abt my feelings, i think shes concerned for me"

"at least she acres, nobody asked me about that at ur age"

"i meant this in a positive way"

"whats negative is that you're not doing well"

i wanna read the albert camus book 

this guy whos taphs and joohas classmate whipped out his book and i guessed the title and it was the stranger by camus and i ws impressed and he was impressed and jooha was explainign sin and cas to me and teta or whatever

anywya i wanna beat him in reading it faster than him and then he'll be super impressed by me and be my friend. 

i want to tear my scalp apar

"everyone has these kinds of dark thoughts everyone has them" 
ok well usound like my therapist pls stop

i hate when people act like they know me

the only person tht actually knows me might be taph, not anybody else

not my girlfriend not my parents not you or anyone else
im so tired of people pretending they do

i may tell u shit about myself but u dont know anything

dance mums?

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