and i don’t know why. it’s weird because lately i feel like everyone is leaving me and i hate it. i know i can suck sometimes but i do care a lot about my friends like so much it’s crazy how much i love my friends. i haven’t texted a lot of my closest friends for a whole week (an actual conversation). it sucks because i thought 2024 was gunna be different but i guess every year some how it’s getting worse like 2023 was kind of bad but not that bad at the same time since 2017 or whatever it’s been like that and i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i mean it’s not a good start to 2024 listening to rebzyyx (scenecore/hyperpop in general), semetary, mcr and a lot of artists i listened to when i was about 10 and even the fact that im listening to the artists that i would listen to the most when i was not okay so this sucks. i dont know why i decided to write all this to be honest, i might put this on private when i remember that i wrote this. i have a huge headache and bellyache right now i feel like im gonna throw up. the headache might from hitting my head but im not sure though whatever i just hope that eventually people will stop hating me
i think all my friends hate me…
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mais xo ✧.*
dont worry im going thru the same shit right now, inshallah we can both get through it! ill pray for you luv <33
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thank you so much for ur kind words n prayers, that means a lot. <33 i really appreciate it. i'm also sorry to hear that you're going through a difficult time too. may allah grant you strength, guidance, and peace during these challenging times, im sure things will get better soon!!
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khadi
i hope ur doing alright ^^
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aw thank youu!! im doing a bit better!!!!
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cl0wn
They wouldn't be your friends if they hated you. While duplicitous, manipulative people certainly exist they are thankfully not nearly as common as our insecurities sometimes lead us to believe.
Emotions are important and we do well to be aware of them but they can deceive us. Comfort in music (or whatever other medium you may choose to indulge in) isn't something to be worried about unless it is actively debilitating to you.
This too shall pass, as they say. I hope for you it passes sooner than later, so you can be a silly clown rather than a sad one. Until then my advice is to try to just let yourself feel your emotions without letting them worry you.
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awwww i loved this, it made me smile so much!! ur so sweet!! yes being a silly clown is better than being a sad one!!
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Stan
You hit your head that hard that you have a headache O-o
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I hope you’re okay :(
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i’ll txt u instead wait
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