(edited) i might have to say goodbye to my dog.. (vent)

edit: he's passed, fly high ronny.

my poor dog keeps having seizures. and i don't know if his body is strong enough to handle them, since he's just a little guy..

the moment i stepped downstairs to head to school, i knew something was deeply wrong by the strong dog smell, and the fact my mom told him to stop chewing on the cupboards (he never does that).

i can't be strong enough right now.. i've been crying and even had to skip first period just so i could calm down a little bit.

last night i was overwhelmed to the point where i couldn't speak, and this is just making things worse. my poor dog, he might be on his last breaths..

i'm so sorry ronny. i'm so sorry for not spending enough time with you or loving you as much as i could. i'm sorry for not looking after you the way i was meant to all this time. it's my fault.

my poor baby.. my little gremlin.. i love you.. i'm so sorry darling..

please don't leave.. please.. please..