Death journal 3 - what I want to do before I die

One of the worst parts of dying is knowing that you're not making the most of every moment, and that there's nothing you can do about it. Sure, you can always send that text, get in touch with your loved ones, try out that new hobby, and millions of other things, but when you're dying you notice that making the most of every moment is just a fantasy from a world where you're unstoppable and, ironically, immortal.

I crave for both mental and financial peace, “time heals everything” I don't think I'll have enough time to recover this shattered meat, nor the mental struggles that came with it.

Here's the list of all the things I want to do before I die:

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which is sadly just me whining over being broke, lonely and unhealthy π w π

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1- feel healthiness 

2- go to Japan

3- go to a deftones concert

4- experience true love

5- get rid of all my scars/bruises

6- get at least one amavel dress

7- have a girl best friend

8- have a real friend group

9- go to a party

10- to have someone ask me out

11- to have all the people that's hurted me get consequences

12- to have enough money to be in financial peace

13- to have my mom love me as myself

14- have a mastectomy

15- eat fried ice cream

16- to try every ice cream shop in the world

17- to get married

18- find a real family

19- find my soulmate

20- visit the whole south of my country

21- to have the same hot chocolate I drank when I was a kid

22- to be understood

23- to be able to cry 

24- to forgive myself

25- to have a kitty/puppy love me

26- sleepover with my boyfriend

27- be able to sing in front of an audience

28- climb a tree

29- go to a fancy restaurant

30- be able to rest