turns out ... it does not help

i need someone who "understands" some part of anything..

...and riddle me why things seem .5x speed rn or just stagnant...

surrounded by beauty, but the units of motion and inspiration don't register.    

so much for motivation from k2, he's withering away. 

"practice what u preach" on replay, don't be a fraud, go, go, go, go, go, go

work it out you fuck. go.

picture this..........................................................................................................................................a man who others look at like he does nothing to contribute to this world

creativity there but head foggy, curiosity visible but his utility laughable. 

at what costs.. 

he made strides, and accomplishments... personal ones, but still.

just to fall into a position of bad habits and routines again, and again. 

finna get the union job and a flip phone, see if it helps..

REALLY BEING UNCOMFORTABLE GIVES ME THE MOST LIGHT/LIFE

how do i find that space more efficiently without all the down time of nothingness.

stuck somewhere that i have never been before.

like that fly in my room that has been there longer than it should

thus, i further the research of "does it help?"

how do you start to find a job that interesting but also practical, i cant take anymore opinions from people over the age of 40. I'm not no penny pincher, give me meaning, give me life.