5/11/24

its been kinda hard

today i didnt do much except go to the store . been getting into homestuck recently while i was gone . autism food

this week was sort of successful . i took my meds every day this week and brushed my teeth ~4 days . i have eye surgery at the end of the month and psychological testing in roughly a week . after my surgery i will be able to get contacts . finally

dbt has also been going a little better i remember ABCplease really well ( accumulate positives , build mastery , cope ahead / physical wellness , lather , exercise , avoid substances , sleep well , eat well ) . somehow it's the easiest to remember despite being absurdly long . i should look at the book they gave me more

school ends on the 12th of june and i am relatively sure i won ' t get everything up to passing by then i mean i'll try but i don't know what will come after .

i 'm also questioning career options again . is marine biology even something i can make a living on  . would it be worth it to do something in finance instead . could i function in either of those environments . killing myself looks better by the day but i want a summer job so i don ' t care about that right now

i keep forgetting that my eye is intact and i will in fact be able to drive post surgery and my perception is fine aside from double vision i dont know what to do about this but it probably isnt a good sign

blogging seems generally good for me and fun but i have to remember to do it