So he's twice my age

I'm going on another date with him, my roommate is pissed because he's twice my age. Saying it's bad for me. Honestly he's so hot. He's short, messy black hair, blazer with rock pins, studs, eyeliner, t shirt, and black jeans. Everything I wish guys my age dressed. Why is Gen X the hottest generation? Besides, 50 is the new 30. On average we're living into our 90s now. Middle age, isn't old.

When I think of him, obviously Daddy Issues by The Neighborhood plays in my head. Followed by Guys My Age by Hey Violet.

I keep lying about my age, as if a few months even matter. Saying I'm 27, when I'm still 26. I've been saying I'm older than Leo's girlfriends, our age difference is smaller than Michael Sheen and his wife. I'm old enough to rent a car.

For once id like to have sex with someone not off an app, or blow a guy for cash off seeking arrangement. He's got a beer gut, but damn he makes me quiver.

He said I could go with his band to Japan, but I have to finish college. I want to so bad. There, I know the judgement from friends wouldn't matter. What happens in Japan, well stays there. I'm not looking for a relationship, I'm looking for an FWB.

Awhile ago he said he doesn't sleep with friends or those in the industry, unfortunately I'm both. So we're stuck on this mutual flirting. His bandmate said he's going to try and use me, because I'm a promoter- he'll do anything for his career. So this makes it weird, if I've unintentionally became a predator of someone older. But then again, I don't think that's how him and his scene thinks. He's a rockstar, and I happen to have lived with rock stars.

It's what's familiar to me. What I need. I told my family about it, they're supportive. My mom who's younger than him, who's 46. Says that she isn't against it or even worried. She trusts that more than the other guy, who is my age.

Being raised in a house of a rockstar, I grew up on the road. I need to constantly be moving. I myself have the struggle of day to day of a performer. It's nice to talk to someone who gets it, someone who likes talking about the future. We're both self centered, passionate. I need someone who will put their art before anything else. Art before me. Who will get ill be doing the same. My art comes first.

Even if we never end up hooking up, just for once a friend that gets everything I'm going through. Plus 20 years of experience.

I'm not normal, I'm not naive. I've lived a fucking hard life. I've done more stuff in my life, than people do in their entire lives. So I guess that I'd why older people and myself are drawn together. I'm up there with life experience. I know as I get older, I'll even be more mature. Look back and think I was stupid.