everything is piling up!

hi guys omg i havent submitted an entry in so long aaa (not that anyone would read this) but lets get started with my yapping! everything is piling up,, schoolwork, friendships, relationship, family, health problems, past mistakes, and mental health and everything i dont even know where to start, i hate setting expectations for myself because in the end im never sure if i can make it, school is so stressy and its getting kinda difficult for me to adjust to playing this "good student" act like trying to submit everything in time (failed), giving my best that i can do at this state (failed), contribute in groupworks as much as i can (failed), and learn something new everyday (also failed) and i feel like im slowly drifting away from my friends, or maybe its just that im in junior high now and not middle school when everything was simple and the only thing i had to worry about is if we'll have a math presentation tomorrow and talking to friends was the main thing i did on my phone. i miss that , life bgets so much harder the more you knoww and the more you grow i used to try and rush to grow up but know i know ive been so ungrateful for having the privilege of being so young and clueless, now im in that phase where people tell me im already this big age and tell me i should know/care/think this and that but also tell me im too young to know/care/think this and that people do not make sense at all its irritating aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and i make so so many mistakes i wish i could take back. i think i am deteriorating actually i still am i have been for a few months or a year or something and theres really nothing or no one i can count on its reaally hard for me its getting really hard for me i dont know why this is sucha  hard thing for me because i know out there that there are people who are going through the same things i am yet they are handling it like its nothing, its honestly embarassing how much i have to complain about, i have a roof under my head, isnt that enough?