interview questions from myself to i (vent)

what qualities in my personality do i have that make me human?
what makes me myself?
am i still a boy?
am i really what i want to be?
what makes me weird? why are those things weird?
do people think i'm weird? why do they think that way?
will i be successful?
who is praying on my downfall?
is my writing good enough?
does she love me or just pity me?
am i toxic?
was i ever meant to be loved?
was i ever meant to feel loved?
was i ever meant to love?
does she know?
what do they think of me?
do they consider me a friend?
should i consider them friends?
is it normal to feel this way?
what is my target weight?
will i get taller?
why do i kill everything?
do i shut down often?
why do i shut down?
what is my favorite fruit?
who will i be in the future?
who was i in the past?
who am i now?
where am i going?
what do i have?

i used to want to be held and cradled and whatnot when i cried, by anyone.
now i hate everyone's touch but hers and my hugs are hesitant
when will i ever be content with myself? (if ever??

will i ever be????????